I was just seeing some pics from my time after surgery. I remembered feeling like they thought I was a problem patient. I remember that one patient next door complained at any sound of existence and wakeness from me. Even the sound of watching a video on my phone or talking to a friend. I have a picture of a biker roomie they gave me and he and I got along so well they got mad at us for laughing! (I have more reasons than the filth to hate that hospital)
The whole time I just accepted the idea. But let's examine it. The idea here is that I am so morally reprobate I need to be kept caged and isolated unless someone equally morally degenerate, like a hells angel biker drug dealer (he was) comes along to partner with me.
But why am I so toxic to morals? That's something I always accepted that "moral people" were going to look down on me and treat me like a pariah or criminal. Sure enough it's been going on a long time.
Reasons they might think this about me: I smoke weed. I'm queer. I am fully versed in profanity (and in case you haven't noticed, I can communicate without it too.) Frankly that last one shouldn't count except of course women are punished for swearing, always, without fail. Men are allowed to swear, though not around women, and women absolutely may not even know those words. A woman who knows the word "fuck" must necessarily Satan's own Mistress, eh?
yeah, I think that the nurses in that hospital suffered from Excessive Morality Syndrome in which you feel entitled to bully people if you can come up with an excuse. Makes sense since they're catholic. I really hated the morning prayers. I would put headphones on to drown it out.
I still think that the modern hospital system should be wholly secular. But that ain't up to me.
Ok, I feel better about things. The fact that the Catholic hospital people were pulling that christian punishment bullshit on me does not mean I have to accept that as my spot in society generally, or even around them.
I fucking well am a goddamn moral queer for fucks sake. I'm more moral than 95% of you fucks out there and you lot don't even understand the morals you're pushing. At this point I stick out my tongue and give the world a raspberry.