The next 50 years

Once again, I really want to talk to someone and can't. Lately I've been venting on social media and it's been nice to get responses, but this time, I need to vent and can't trust anyone. It's my sister. She's a lying bitch. Always was. I never knew if she cheated too but this seems to be a yes. Mom died and sister informs me that she is sole inheritor and executor and will decide how much of the meagre remains goes to me. Does not compute. The song she sang of poverty also, does not compute and fits her style of lying. Mom was just so damn frugal and closed about it all, she was NOT broke. Besides the house never got sold. It got rented for $1500 a month. Probably to family. Who are probably still there. Sister filed a will that's over ten years old, naming my father as trustee and he's been gone since ??? I don't even remember when he died, but it's been a LONG time. That's skullduggery. I wrote the disability advocate for the court ...

Are you expecting some expression of outage? Some communication of anger? Perhaps a long sob story of need? Maybe you have waited our whole lives for me to give you an excuse to speak foully at me without inhibition?  Well I have not waited at all. I simply never did it with you in the room. I do indeed spit fire and ice and fury in your name, but not when you are there. I do it to your ghost, as it were. Soul to soul, perhaps? I wouldn't really know. What I do know is that you've been hateful since I was born. I remember it all, in it's own hazy confusing way. The gaslighting made it so hard to understand what was going on. You spoke one script while acting another and I had no idea why. I tried so hard to be that sibling to you but you rejected every single advance I ever made, didn't you? You never initiated, and were always short and curt with me when I tried. I remember. This never ended, not even in adulthood. You never reached out and when I did, ma...

A woman in New Westminster saw me on tik tok and set up a fundraiser. It has done moderately well but not life changing. Basically, a bit of funds to loosen up my options, but not really enough to do much. I also got a drip from my mother's estate, now held entirely by my sister in complete secrecy and if I don't like it, I can pay a lawyer in ontario to inquire.  I am not clear the amounts nor do I think I should detail that stuff here but if I rack up 5k between the two sources it will be surprising.  I did purchase another laptop. The first is for general writing and file management, back up the phone, etc. It does not go online, and i can write on it, and it has great battery life. Can also watch movies on it.  This new one is strong enough to do 3d CAD for printing and also let me tour the hermitcraft world. Which honestly was all I gave a damn about. It feels so criminal to have spent the money on a "toy" instead of anything else. I don't regret it, and ...