light that gas
Just remembering my sister's behaviours towards me. How when I make a statement of observation she ALWAYS shoots me down and tells me no way, I'm wrong. She's gaslighting me! I'm seeing her behaviour in a whole other light lately. I never saw her as a sociopathic narcissist before, so I was always feeling quite confused. Confused at how differently we see the world, how her self statements conflict with her reality, how she treats me like I'm weak. Now I get it. She's taking up her mother's mantle and continuing my schooling and placement as they see it. I'm constantly being put back in my place, and since it's NOT my place and I don't fit or belong there, I'm constantly being put back there by them. That's the whole tension in my family. They want me in this one specific narrow role of "poor crazy person." Why they want me there I don't get, but mom's been putting me there for a very very long time and Sis is just ...