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Desiree

My mother died this morning in her sleep.  I cannot say I grieve her because she was such a distant presence already.  You can call this cold, but then you haven't been keeping up. Last year I realized the way the world was, I didn't stand a fairy fart's chance in a traffic jam. I cannot escape the street and pain on my own.  My teeth are shot, it's getting scary and I can't even just have them pulled.  How I am coping is lots of teatree oil. That's one. The housing sitch.  I could find housing under 500k that I can accept.  Less?  No.  the whole business about being around 100k or so in debt won't help either.  Now back to last year and I remembered that I predicted today, way back in my youth.  I noted and knew the age of her and the age of me and it is indeed now. Which is fucking chilling really.  She also went as I said, stroke in the night. Whew.  So I siezed upon the idea, maybe her estate isn't depleted.  Even if i...