update on my health

I've been so tired lately.  I'm taking supplemental iron and that's helped but my health has been poor and it's taking my energy clean away.  I'm suffering from piles.  I'd call them by their medical name if I could ever remember how to spell it but that's one of those words I can't get right.  If left unchecked, it means you have an inflamed and potentially infected sore in your insides which really messes up the whole area.  All the organs around it inflame in sympathy.  I wind up peeing more, everything hurts, and every time I do go to pee, I also get an urge to empty my blocked-up bowels.  Resisting that takes a  lot of effort but not resisting makes things uglier!
So treating with anti-inflammatories, low stress and rest, applied witchhazel, and laxatives as needed is helping, but I really need to get my digestion under control. That means getting my husband's crazy-making under control because it's stress from that which twists my guts in the first place.  Just typing about it twists me!
Okay, so that's why I'm not blogging.  I'm just playing minecraft and resting between daily chores.
Oh and our water heater finaly blew it's lid so we've got no hot water for awhile till we find and buy the right replacement.  yep.  Boiling water for the dishes.  Using my inflatable hot tub after a japanese pool-side scrub to keep clean and get soaked.  I really need to learn how to treat that water to reduce the bacteria, though.  the instructions warned against too much chlorine and i"m pretty sure you need special filters for salt.  More research.  I'd rather work on building my road in minecraft.

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