Blog entry, water and tyranny

So I've been parked here since february. Going for water at the empty icbc building, being careful not to draw attention or overdo it.

Then the situation over on the other side of the creek got ugly as local businesses decided to fight with their RV population. Who arrived here and parked at the icbc which used to be strictly policing the yard and now seem to have abandoned the building. A week after arrival this jackass is letting water run out on the ground so he can have nice sod to lay on (wtf?) and giving the others permission to steal electricity from the building. One person argued with him about something and he declares it's his territory because he was there the longest (not at all) and if they don't like it, too fucking bad.  

This jackass is going to get the water cutoff at the least, get us swept and the local laws changed at worse and I haven't a clue what to do. I have run into this kind of bully before and they work strictly on the basis of cheating and power tripping and I do not have the energy to constantly bully him back simply to protect the water supply. Nobody seems to want to deal, and he's got at least 2 flying monkeys already, people who like being shown favoritism and feel empowered by it. So you aren't just fighting the petty tyrant in a stained shirt, but his half baked generals in arms too.

The part that bugs me most is this is the #1 problem plaguing us all, how to make these little shits shut the fuck up and cooperate instead of pushing their bellies around like the vanguard of an army. I mean, the instinct is to go violent on them but of course that's never solved anything long enough to warrant the pain and effort.

And I am going to have to go farther for water and getting water for a bath is going to be far harder as I will have to walk it two blocks to the nearest parking spot. From two blocks total, to drive and walk two blocks, because shithead wants a lawn and the other two monkeys want lighting.

Best case scenario is ICBC enforces parking and sweeps that little alley clear and keeps it swept like I think they'd been doing last year, but does not cut off the water.

One of the sides of my mind is arguing we could make that happen if we found the right phone number. Another side is arguing that this is fucking rude and way over the top and sit down and let it play out. Which is the side that I think sounds wiser. I think the phone call part of my brain is hiding my ego trying to control things like egos do.  

Last night was crazy. Three separate people needed emotional support from me. I'm just going through walking by and saying hello but next thing you know I"m counselling an alcoholic to feel less shame and more courage, a narcissistic mother is weeping for a lost son and the others that won't speak to her, and an angry german immigrant is obsessing over the bogus police charges he received for being too emotional and dirty in front of a cop. That's like waving meat in front of a wild dog pack. I tried to explain legal aid to him but his comprehension was questionable. He was not fully sober and was quite agitated and afraid. 

I asked for community. Said I wanted to be needed and useful. Didn't want to be alone. Well. Here I am, getting exactly what I asked for. Do I like it? Well of course not, LOL, but do I appreciate it? Intellectually, yes. Emotionally? working on it. They scare the everloving fuck out of me but I already got two weeks more dog food from the interaction. 

So I am not going to overlook this truth, this is what community is on every level of society. A little kindness, a lot of cruelty, and mostly insanity at every turn. Everywhere I go. That's what I run into. Whether it was the well heeled fancy people my mother chased or these run down dregs of society or the just plain church folks, even the hippy party folks were like this. Socialist or capitalist, anarchist or monarchist, everyone of them boiled down to the same mix of madness. Can't escape the bullies.

I think whatever happens, I might escape being swept. My spot is pretty innocuous and people around here are taking a shine to me, so perhaps they will sweep only that little alley and leave it at that. Or they might just abandon the building and the power and water loss and just observe, see what happens. I hope not, I know how that goes. I should have taken more pics. First a few items appear around the door. Then they become a wee room outside. then storage under the vehicle begins. then a roof is built over the wee room. The storage builds and builds untile there is a wall of stuff like a mini trash fortress all around the base of the rv and around the wee room which begins to grow, adding more tarps and trash, to cover more of the storage. 

I saw one that was 2 stories high and big as a suburban house from the 80s. When it inevitably gave in to physics, nobody cleared it up, they just shifted their bodies and most needed items to another location and it molders there yet.

These little RV fortresses become havens for rats and roaches, black mold and bedbugs. They can't be cleaned properly. They offer food and shelter to a variety of animals. Fire rips through them like a wildfire in august, and of course collapsing is a hazard too. But the pests and fire endanger those nearby as well as the caterpillars inside.

Hoarding is the issue there, I guess, and it's a vain attempt at gaining power.

Really, most of today's issues cannot be solved at a social level because the capitalist agenda won't be stopped and is causing them. Feeling disempowered and afraid is the cause of almost all mental illness and bad actions these days. Trauma falls under that umbrella too. Disempowerment is the primary cause of unease in our world and it's the primary intention of capitalism. To gather power to the fewest individuals possible while forcing a constant refreshing and increase in the available power (impossible, hence the abuse)

Well ok, you are wondering how things are going generally.

Still waiting to be approved for disability, living on $600 which isn't enough to save for the bus importation issue. My bus plates expire next march and I haven't a clue what happens then. I need to do a LOT of work on the bus to pass safety inspection so it can be licensed here and I targeted $5k as the target amount to save. I could possibly have done it on a thousand a month starting july but I'm already so far behind it's terrifying. Dan has been working and says he'll help pay for it, that's been my only hope. As usual. See why I can't just send him packing?

I also went and lost my wallet the day I deposited my check for the month so I haven't had access to the funds at all. Again, it's dan supplying food and such. But then the $300 in the bank maybe will stay and be contributed to savings.

I've been setting my products up as a little shop on the bus. No sales but it looks nice. I do it Saturday evenings. The traffic is light and that's actually intentional so I don't get cops coming saying I'm blocking the sidewalk. I'm only taking off 18" of it anyway. Maybe eventually it'll pay off. Next week, however, I am planning for the pride parade in town. No idea why it's then instead of june like the rest of the world nor if it'll be anything but standing alone in a crowd watching people party. My usual experience lately. Just stand there, take a few compliments, come home feeling extra empty and like I wasted too much time for too little reward. I will bring spinning and a chair, I guess, so it's not wasted or painful time. 

that's the update. I'm waiting, yet again, for my ID to arrive in the mail before I can access funds of any sort except online via the visa, which I put a hold on anyway due to the theft. So no, not even that. I can't get the new card until the ID arrives either, so the visa is not a resource.  

Good side, the loss of my plastic cards did not include my bus pass with $35 on it and I have a full tank in my car. So mobility is not an issue. I will use transit to get to the pride venue. This will tax my health the least and I do not want to cope with finding parking and frankly my bike is probably not welcome in the area. Dog has to stay home because the transit won't allow her. Pity but that's still an issue. Contain the animal fully in a carrier you can carry or not at all.

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