spring has sprung and the drought has begun
I feel so tired and beat down. Still no word about anything that can be considered hope or rescue or a miracle. Nothing. Worse yet, the cheap $45 a year bus pass removes $52 a month from my income meaning it costs MORE than the regular bus pass would have done. I am stuck now for the year, losing that money off my income which is much too small for this. If Dan wasn't sharing I would have no food or weed and no food for the pets and no fuel for anything. No candles or kerosene, propane or butane. No diesel for the heater, no gas for the generator.This is so hopeless and helpless and I am so damn disabled now, I just can't feel ok anymore. The autism is now pretty much full on, like when I was a little child, and it's making difficult things impossible. This includes dealing with websites on my tiny phone screen with my bad vision. This includes being able to go places because not only is the hernia a liability, but I am so exhausted both mentally and ...