can't do visits, feels like a failure.

I've lost heart.  I'm dead sure Ayami regrets asking me to visit her but can't say as much and I just don't want to sit in a room failing to entertain a sick person.  I've been complained at that I am draining and too much energy asked.  How or why I couldn't say but it's clear over the years that making conversation isn't in my skill set.
So I'm going to pedal over there in the cooler morning air and drop off my present with a note promising things I can do for her instead of sitting idly in a room trying to be someone's entertainment.
i guess I should compose that note.
The relief beginning to flood me as I've decided not to put myself through it.  Well it's not complete due to the danger of her being too nice to agree with me, or perhaps I'm wrong.  Either way I'd never know if she begged me to come back as a gift to me or because it was actually a gift to her!  I hate hospitals besides which makes this even harder to sort out.  Am I making shit up to get out of something unpleasant which everyone takes in stride?  But is it really doing her any good when I sit there?  She didn't seem to be enjoying the visit any more than I did.
Yes, I will try to compose a nice letter and see if she can work on that level.  At least I can say things without weeping in her face then.