how does he love me? let me list the ways
when i got hit on my bike, he ignored me for four days and then scolded me for it and refused to help fix it. it still isn't getting fixed. he acts like they're precious treasures I'm ruining that must now be preserved from further damage by sitting in the garage forever.
He talks down to me whenever he can. He complains that I don't "listen" (obey) to him and I always argue. I only argue when he draws me into it and it always starts with me thinking I can fill in some holes in his obviously flawed views. Like how he thinks the USA is herding people into work camps and building gas chambers for them and intends to kill all the citizens of the whole world except those who belong to his illuminati group (that he never names.)
or he tells me about some outrageous application of law and I want him to see the other side of the problem.
But he only does it to get me going, I know it but I'm gone by the time I see it happening. I mean, he's a master manipulator, right? When I got him into counselling one time he had the counsellor eating out of his hand and proposing therapeutic rape with large dildoes to fix my problem with not being able to submit to him unaroused. Yeah, I'm supposed to let him have intercourse with me because he wants it, whether I'm aroused or not. But I never had a baby. I did my kegels from age 13, and I'm in menopause. It was bruising me internally and he always went on for 30-45 mins minimum, sawing away like he had to work at it, ignoring everything but the curve of my rotund obese ass.
I said "okay, i'll let you have that, but you have to learn to please me in return. i'll give you one now, and next time, you spend the time to get me going." "sure" he promised. When I tried to demand he hold up to that agreement he said "it's too much work." I had to move out of my bed because he'd molest me as I was trying to get to sleep then turn it into a massive black hole of his disappointment when I said no. Whenever he's mad at me, he goes to work for 16hr days and ignores me. he never makes up after a fight, just waits for me to patch things up. sooner or later you do, because all that stress and hate and anger spoils what should be nice times doing bbq or something. But he doesn't do anything with me anymore, not one blessed thing for fun. Nope.
I gotta get rid of him, or me, but this has ended. But what then?
He talks down to me whenever he can. He complains that I don't "listen" (obey) to him and I always argue. I only argue when he draws me into it and it always starts with me thinking I can fill in some holes in his obviously flawed views. Like how he thinks the USA is herding people into work camps and building gas chambers for them and intends to kill all the citizens of the whole world except those who belong to his illuminati group (that he never names.)
or he tells me about some outrageous application of law and I want him to see the other side of the problem.
But he only does it to get me going, I know it but I'm gone by the time I see it happening. I mean, he's a master manipulator, right? When I got him into counselling one time he had the counsellor eating out of his hand and proposing therapeutic rape with large dildoes to fix my problem with not being able to submit to him unaroused. Yeah, I'm supposed to let him have intercourse with me because he wants it, whether I'm aroused or not. But I never had a baby. I did my kegels from age 13, and I'm in menopause. It was bruising me internally and he always went on for 30-45 mins minimum, sawing away like he had to work at it, ignoring everything but the curve of my rotund obese ass.
I said "okay, i'll let you have that, but you have to learn to please me in return. i'll give you one now, and next time, you spend the time to get me going." "sure" he promised. When I tried to demand he hold up to that agreement he said "it's too much work." I had to move out of my bed because he'd molest me as I was trying to get to sleep then turn it into a massive black hole of his disappointment when I said no. Whenever he's mad at me, he goes to work for 16hr days and ignores me. he never makes up after a fight, just waits for me to patch things up. sooner or later you do, because all that stress and hate and anger spoils what should be nice times doing bbq or something. But he doesn't do anything with me anymore, not one blessed thing for fun. Nope.
I gotta get rid of him, or me, but this has ended. But what then?