hospital results
I got the doctor to take my phone and take a pic for me. It's a gorgeous pic. I don't know if you can get the full res but on my devices it's wonderfully detailed. I was pleased with the fitness of my bones. I've worried about osteoporosis and now I can see I've worried well.
On to why the pic. Well we're getting onto my health now. Okay, nevermind the deets or how we got there, but I do not have an impaction, and probably only an obstruction right at the opening. But I absolutely must have a colonoscopy and that is also how they'll fix the obstruction. that is a picture of a year's worth of backed up meals, more or less. I stood and took a good look at me in the tub and realized I have no waist purely because of the masses of swollen intestines. I"m skin and bones and going to have trouble not getting thinner over the next while. the swollen stomach disguises a lot of it. I have thinspo worthy thigh gap and chest ribs, sharp square shoulders, and my hips are hollow.
the funny thing is, I'm loving it. I recognize I need more muscle and I know I'll like it, but I am so unreasonably delighted with my slight frame. I used to squeeze through things one shouldn't be able to do. If my tummy weren't so fat I could probably pull off some silly contortions. My flexibility is at an all time high for no flesh in the joints to interfere.
I feel like I have had someone come along and lipo all the fat and give my body back to be finished and decorated. A reset. I am a petite woman, but I was not wearing a petite frame. I did my best to get on with business and not get all focussed on it, but I really hated all that excess weight. It didn't insulate, comfort, protect or otherwise appeal at all.
So they got me in the back door to see a GE and I wouldn't be the least surprised if I get March 16th. LOL
The thing is, all this time spent stretched out like queen sized stockings is not going to be doing my belly any good. I'll have to find out how you exercise the bowel muscles once I pass all the material. Which I can't do well till the colonoscopy.
so I'm having to really think about how to get high calorie food into me without getting a lot of bulk. I need protiens and fats and calories, without forgetting to team them with equal amounts or better of fiber. all while never exceeding 3 oz of food. Whew. I'm going to get skinnier. that is bad. I am too weak already. However, Dan's going to forgive me my "laziness" now, he gets it. I weigh in at 126# but that mass of waste could be up to 25# worth of that! so I could be the proverbial 99# weakling here. That puts me as thin as my ex friend Valerie ever got at her worst.
Oh man, it still is a very painful state. ech. So hard to ignore.
Yeah, I'm done here, catch up later when I learn more.