turn for the worse

So I am shitting blood in huge amounts now.  It'll be a burst and a plop as if I landed a crap, but the toilet will look like carnage.  Is there solid in there?  Can't tell, blood isn't transparent enough.  Huge amount of blood.  Two flush level.
Seriously, how am I supposed to not be terrified?
But what do I do?  Nothing is all I can figure out, so nothing is all I do. Sit and write about it here, cry in terror for a few hours.