Insommnia
Here's how one can spend two hours in the dark trying to sleep. Okay, I am not spending the entire time that way, I did turn on the ipad for a bit.
I woke up to pee, that's ordinary. Got downstairs and it was frigid so I grabbed the fireplace remote/thermostat and took it downstairs to replace the battery. It uses 9v so after poking around with a flashlight for awhile I gave up and put the half dead thing closer to the fireplace so Dan won't freeze down there. Up to bed. Back to the bathroom again because I think maybe I need to crap. I don't, but I pick up Dan's ipad to watch a wimp video and there's a text message from the kid he undercharged who wants to pay electronically.
I'm mad about it. He likes this kid, it was nice working with him, but the young man's moved to a new job. Dan isn't going to be buddies with him. The man asked him to do his house, like everyone in town wouldn't like to be able to ask?
JUST lost 10mins typing because I switched apps for a moment. Goddamn I'd like to replace this old ipad with a Surface. But we can't afford it.
The kid complained abotu not getting the work done in time for christmas. Dan booked off to do the job. So he charges the kid so little that the minimum charge setup fee for one part of a 3 part job is half the total price, on a huge new house the guy is selling for profit. Dan's his best buddy now! So the guy wants to pay electronically. That is a problem because when Dan did his friendly calculating he didn't calculate the government's cut and if it's not cash, it's getting cut. So now we can take another 10% off the top of it and hand that away to the government, plus Dan has to generate the paperwork for it to avoid any trouble with said officials.
Dan meanwhile is just trying to be as lazy as he can while appearing magnanimous to a fault. I'm pissed off!
So I tried to go back to sleep but I could have run a marathon with all the wakeful energy. I sat down with my ipad and watched a bunch of videos till I felt mellower.
I ran my sleep cd and turned off the light (not much though, dim) and tried to sleep. First one mentally catalogs and forces relaxation, muscle by muscle. Release the tongue from the roof of my mouth, unclench my jaw, untwist my face, stretch out that leg, cough, snort, breathe, cough, scratch, stretch the other leg. Release tongue and jaw and face again. Relax back and shoulders. Flip over becuase something's cramping. Focus on that muscle relaxing list again. Scratch five itches. Cough and piss your pants, get up to the bathroom to change the pee strip in there. Start the cd over. Rearrange the blankets and pillows which are getting twisted. Change pillows for your head to the dry one since now you've sweated too much. An hour has passed.
Get up and write a diatribe in text message to Dan. Get my feelings out and maybe I can sleep. or not. Go through the insane routines above again. Relax, cough, scratch, try to empty a sinus, flip over, try and relax again, more itches, more twitches. Get up fast and awake, mad about being awake sstill, and go write in the blog because this night is fucked and ifyou're lucky you'll fall asleep just before the alarm goes off. Sleep-in for 2 hours because the day is fucked anyway, might as well be two hours behind.
This is not unusual. Sometimes this is how my nights go most nights, other times I get lucky and have a run of nights where I fall asleep right after the bathroom break. Sometimes I even get a night where I slept right through, but usually because I took cold medicine as a sleep aid. I used to have these valerian root sleeping pills from Nytol. they don't make them anymore but I've got a bottle of just valerian root I haven't tried. Didn't know I was going to be this awake!
Maybe I'll just get up. I so don't want to lay here anymore. Or I could lay here and watch tv for an hour. Yeah, that'll do. Then I can get up at 7:30 and just start the day and call it a 4 hour sleep night.
I'm going to split this writing into two entries because the software gets such a horrible glitch when the post gets much longer.
I woke up to pee, that's ordinary. Got downstairs and it was frigid so I grabbed the fireplace remote/thermostat and took it downstairs to replace the battery. It uses 9v so after poking around with a flashlight for awhile I gave up and put the half dead thing closer to the fireplace so Dan won't freeze down there. Up to bed. Back to the bathroom again because I think maybe I need to crap. I don't, but I pick up Dan's ipad to watch a wimp video and there's a text message from the kid he undercharged who wants to pay electronically.
I'm mad about it. He likes this kid, it was nice working with him, but the young man's moved to a new job. Dan isn't going to be buddies with him. The man asked him to do his house, like everyone in town wouldn't like to be able to ask?
JUST lost 10mins typing because I switched apps for a moment. Goddamn I'd like to replace this old ipad with a Surface. But we can't afford it.
The kid complained abotu not getting the work done in time for christmas. Dan booked off to do the job. So he charges the kid so little that the minimum charge setup fee for one part of a 3 part job is half the total price, on a huge new house the guy is selling for profit. Dan's his best buddy now! So the guy wants to pay electronically. That is a problem because when Dan did his friendly calculating he didn't calculate the government's cut and if it's not cash, it's getting cut. So now we can take another 10% off the top of it and hand that away to the government, plus Dan has to generate the paperwork for it to avoid any trouble with said officials.
Dan meanwhile is just trying to be as lazy as he can while appearing magnanimous to a fault. I'm pissed off!
So I tried to go back to sleep but I could have run a marathon with all the wakeful energy. I sat down with my ipad and watched a bunch of videos till I felt mellower.
I ran my sleep cd and turned off the light (not much though, dim) and tried to sleep. First one mentally catalogs and forces relaxation, muscle by muscle. Release the tongue from the roof of my mouth, unclench my jaw, untwist my face, stretch out that leg, cough, snort, breathe, cough, scratch, stretch the other leg. Release tongue and jaw and face again. Relax back and shoulders. Flip over becuase something's cramping. Focus on that muscle relaxing list again. Scratch five itches. Cough and piss your pants, get up to the bathroom to change the pee strip in there. Start the cd over. Rearrange the blankets and pillows which are getting twisted. Change pillows for your head to the dry one since now you've sweated too much. An hour has passed.
Get up and write a diatribe in text message to Dan. Get my feelings out and maybe I can sleep. or not. Go through the insane routines above again. Relax, cough, scratch, try to empty a sinus, flip over, try and relax again, more itches, more twitches. Get up fast and awake, mad about being awake sstill, and go write in the blog because this night is fucked and ifyou're lucky you'll fall asleep just before the alarm goes off. Sleep-in for 2 hours because the day is fucked anyway, might as well be two hours behind.
This is not unusual. Sometimes this is how my nights go most nights, other times I get lucky and have a run of nights where I fall asleep right after the bathroom break. Sometimes I even get a night where I slept right through, but usually because I took cold medicine as a sleep aid. I used to have these valerian root sleeping pills from Nytol. they don't make them anymore but I've got a bottle of just valerian root I haven't tried. Didn't know I was going to be this awake!
Maybe I'll just get up. I so don't want to lay here anymore. Or I could lay here and watch tv for an hour. Yeah, that'll do. Then I can get up at 7:30 and just start the day and call it a 4 hour sleep night.
I'm going to split this writing into two entries because the software gets such a horrible glitch when the post gets much longer.