apathy or burqa, no tears allowed
I'm sitting here thinking, when one feels this awful it's easy to see it lasting forever. Then the thought, how in the hell can I go about my basic independant needs if I can't turn off my emotions? I can't go shopping like this, tear stained and weepy. It's embarassing at the least and an unwanted conversation starter at the worst. If I can't shake it, it could make my life even worse.
Then I realized if worst came to worst, most of the things I do could be done in a burqa! They don't know it's not a muslim woman inside and I don't have to converse with anyone to let on. They'd react to me slightly better than if I went around crying in public! I could go shopping over on the east side where the women who wear Niqabs go about. I'd have to do my stuff early, like they do.
That's when I realized one possible reason these women cling to this tradition. Maybe they need cover for tear stained eyes too? I expect a great deal of them struggle to be happy in a world that considers them to be little more than mindless cattle sent by Evil forces to ruin God's manly work. I can see clinging to that burqua like life itself, rather than face the consequences of going about with your tears out in the open.
anyway, I'm sure that it's mostly last night's lack of sleep and if I can sleep tonight, then tomorrow I'll be able to fake apathy correctly enough to go out in public. Without creating the kind of stir that mideavil islamic dress can cause.
Then I realized if worst came to worst, most of the things I do could be done in a burqa! They don't know it's not a muslim woman inside and I don't have to converse with anyone to let on. They'd react to me slightly better than if I went around crying in public! I could go shopping over on the east side where the women who wear Niqabs go about. I'd have to do my stuff early, like they do.
That's when I realized one possible reason these women cling to this tradition. Maybe they need cover for tear stained eyes too? I expect a great deal of them struggle to be happy in a world that considers them to be little more than mindless cattle sent by Evil forces to ruin God's manly work. I can see clinging to that burqua like life itself, rather than face the consequences of going about with your tears out in the open.
anyway, I'm sure that it's mostly last night's lack of sleep and if I can sleep tonight, then tomorrow I'll be able to fake apathy correctly enough to go out in public. Without creating the kind of stir that mideavil islamic dress can cause.