The next 50 years

 Sitting in a parking lot of a hiking trail after being copped out of the last squatting spot.  I knew we couldn't just stay, Dan didn't agree and so we wound up there again.  It's frankly extremely  challenging to find parking.  You can see there used to be spots everywhere, and they're all blocked off with rocks or concrete barriers or giant locked gates.  The whole atmosphere of hostility here is making me feel defensive and solitudinous. When I go to shops, people just seem miserable.  One place we were at, they were smiling and relaxed and it was like a breath of fresh air. I don't remember if this was normal back east, but it just seems so depressed and self centered here.  Dan says this lot is reserve land, that's interesting.  I would rather deal with a first nations person, but it'll be a cop no matter what, guaranteed. I'm hoping nobody cares enough. What happened at the last spot was overstaying our welcome plus setting out chairs ...

 November 11th 2023 Gotta leave gabriola and can't come back till january.  Don't want to anyway, it's a shitty place for us. We aren't rich enough, old enough or connected enough. It's clear this place is quite hostile.  I really did know it would be, although not how it would be. I am not surprised, though I am saddened to see how it is here.  The hatred is deep and owns the law and the law hounds houseless people around like rats. You need permission from someone to exist?  I don't know.  I just know I can't go anywhere else.  I get so scared, though.  Terrifed of how deep this takes me. Do I wind up homeless on the street here in a year?  Dan still keeps trying to insist he's above the law because he doesn't respect it, and I keep having to outline how that attitude has put us in this situation, how I can't work legit work, travel across the border, own a bank account, and etc. He is responsible for this and can't seem to grok the concept...

 Gabriola island.  We are here.  It's exactly as difficult as it seems it would be and I'm not surprised about it.  But I am distressed and discouraged.  If not here, where can I go?   We arrived last night. The facebook responses were very positive but now I'm thinking it's more of that canadian hypocrisy. They don't want to seem intolerant and self centered. But a lot of canadians are very much so.  They just know the right phrases to pretend otherwise. As with everywhere in Canada, homeless people are not allowed to exist.  We aren't allowed to sleep in a vehicle or on the street or in a park or doorway, we aren't allowed to exist.  But we do.  So we get hassled for it. I haven't been hassled here yet, but neither has anyone given us useable advice on where we can go. Well, the stupid provincial park where I can pay for the privilege of parking in the darkness doing fuck all.  Too many trees. We got chased around nanaimo alr...

 heh, we did it, we came across the water.  I have left north american soil and am on an island in the pacific.  Granted, still politically connected, and on the continental shelf of Canada, but heck, it feels so cool to be off the continent, and for good this time. I will have to go get my car somehow, but damn, I need to get established here.  See, importing this bus to this province is currently not possible. Much more work needs to be done to accomplish it.  That means maintaining nominal residency back there is needed until I accomplish said repairs.  However, there is now time to work on these things, and to find work also.  Dan found an ad for work that looks really attractive, and is putting out an ad.  I've been on the local listings from the mainland and there is a lot of work around for a man who can move.  "have bus, will travel."  I do need to check listings around here but let's see if that island gig happens, if we are abl...

 I want to quit this area.  It wasn't great feeling with all the trash and permanently stuck homeless people but when I realized there is no way in or out except raw freeway?  Well that tears it. I can't go anywhere on a bike, I don't want to be here.  I don't like the feel of this place.  Is it the general attitude of despair or of stubborn resistance?  Is it that with all this enterprise they still can't seem to get away from here?  I dunno.  Maybe it's too many tarps and winter coming.  I follow my instinct and it screams "go anywhere else."  Plenty of nomads don't make the choice to squat in a homeless camp waiting for the inevitable eviction. My wheels turn, my engine runs, we will leave here. 

 Wow, what a wild road it is, that old #1.  I loved it.  I mean, it was absolutely terrifying at times, but that was part of the good. Best part was all the tunnels with their old entrances, second best was the crazy curves overlooking miles of deep valley.  The part I didn't like was climbing hills.  Poor Mackay had to work so hard.  her manifold gaskets arrived, though. But I'm wondering if we should order head gaskets too and prepare for a bigger rebuild.  there is absolute an oil leak off the main engine block where there's a seam I presume to be the head to block joint. Well anyway, we are in the lower mainland now, so that's amazing.  We are down to a scrap of remaining credit and need to earn some dosh to continue.  It looks promising, lots of ads.  The bus's batteries are getting tired of running the diesel heater. The solar batteries are getting far too little charge to even run the laptop now.  I run the bus periodically t...

 You were born a thief.  You stole your mothers womb to grow and broke your way out expecting 20 years of freebies.  Freeloader!   I posted about my travels, saying I was a freeloader for not paying to camp. I camp in parking spots, truck stops, empty land.  But I got all a whole pile on for it calling me a thief. I don't even understand. I'm "as bad as americans."  I'm "what's wrong with this world."   Well I handled it by deleting the post and leaving the group with the harassment/bullying report.  Thing is, it isn't so easily wiped out of my mind.  I didn't double check to see why they thought I was stealing and what they thought I was stealing.  One guy was "if [our fan base person] camps at a campground he always pays" and I never once showed or mentioned campgrounds.  So huh?  It really felt like I was being called a thief for being a freeloader and I've run into that before.  It may even be a majority opin...