Hoo boy, wild ride!

 Wow, what a wild road it is, that old #1.  I loved it.  I mean, it was absolutely terrifying at times, but that was part of the good. Best part was all the tunnels with their old entrances, second best was the crazy curves overlooking miles of deep valley.  The part I didn't like was climbing hills.  Poor Mackay had to work so hard.  her manifold gaskets arrived, though. But I'm wondering if we should order head gaskets too and prepare for a bigger rebuild.  there is absolute an oil leak off the main engine block where there's a seam I presume to be the head to block joint.

Well anyway, we are in the lower mainland now, so that's amazing.  We are down to a scrap of remaining credit and need to earn some dosh to continue.  It looks promising, lots of ads. 

The bus's batteries are getting tired of running the diesel heater. The solar batteries are getting far too little charge to even run the laptop now.  I run the bus periodically to recharge it's batteries and plug in the portable unit to charge it, and then my electronics off it.  Instead of running this loud thing tonight I think I will shut it down at bedtime and let the bus get cold.  It's only going to 7C tonight, nothing to it. We succeeded in fleeing winter. It will not come below maybe -3 at the worst now, perhaps -5 in a month or two.  We can stand this. Imagine if I found gainful employment and settled out here....  Well, no restrictions on the options for now.  I could stand to live here, I might belong on the island, but at least we're away from the frigid temps in Saskatoon. Damn, it's going to -12 overnight and staying snowed in from now until likely spring.  not a deep snow (yet) but still enough to firmly set it as winter now.  I still get tense thinking about how I'd feel looking out the window at that.  I need to look outside and see the lush green and wet place I am in.   It's all so damn surreal. I got here. I actually drove a damn bus across the mountains, and a sick one at that. Boy did I ever build some amazing skills too.  I want to get my smart car and drive her over too, soon, it would be so amazing.  I do need to either rent a small trailer from uhaul or ship some crap ahead to empty the inside of the car a bit. Like there's the winter tires and summer tires. That would be expensive.  If I could pack just a wee bit of food and water and tent, perhaps I could make my way across the country like that.  I mean, if I was rich by my standards, I could stay in motels.  It would probably only take 3 or 4 days at worst.  The bus used to do it in 20hrs and I've been with drivers who did it in 24hrs, on the old #1 in the 80s. Given I drove non stop to vegas in 2013 for 40 hours, it's possible I would try and do it all in one.  Or even drive to calgary, crash on a couch at a new calgary friend's house, then onward the rest of the way to here.

I'd have to fly home, I think.   No idea what that costs.  Plus there's no where to stay in saskatoon while I get the car and arrange some appointments with doctors and such. That's a challenge.  I can't afford to keep spending on airbnb or something either.  Hmmmmmmmmm.  Is a rental RV cheap?  Like rent it here and drive it back and stay in it a month, turn it in there and drive back in the smart? Be a pricey business?  Things to research. What's the cheapest way? Can I do that?  I know driving the bus back isn't the cheapest, but it could be the more economical if I can use it to bring the smart back.  Or even having the car shipped out could be  better.  Options exist.

I shall have to see what winter offers.  There are a lot of job listings in the trades and labour and I am now a man like any other so equally capable, not having to prove extra just because of blah blah bullshit blah.

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