existence is theft

 You were born a thief.  You stole your mothers womb to grow and broke your way out expecting 20 years of freebies.  Freeloader!  

I posted about my travels, saying I was a freeloader for not paying to camp. I camp in parking spots, truck stops, empty land.  But I got all a whole pile on for it calling me a thief. I don't even understand. I'm "as bad as americans."  I'm "what's wrong with this world."  

Well I handled it by deleting the post and leaving the group with the harassment/bullying report.  Thing is, it isn't so easily wiped out of my mind.  I didn't double check to see why they thought I was stealing and what they thought I was stealing.  One guy was "if [our fan base person] camps at a campground he always pays" and I never once showed or mentioned campgrounds.  So huh?  It really felt like I was being called a thief for being a freeloader and I've run into that before.  It may even be a majority opinion that persons should pay to exist.  You can't simply sit on a spot on the ground and waste away, you must pay to be.  All land belongs to someone and you must pay.  We already can't eat free with foraging bans and ignorance getting in the way.  We already can't have shelter without paying for an expensive pretty house.  We already can't keep possessions without paying someone to guard them.  

Well show me the contract, eh?  I was dumped here by a bitch, with handicaps and nothing but bullying from my community, and I feel absolutely no responsibility to pay back for all that "kindness."  Which is good, because payback would be bloody and violent.

Ok, got it off my chest.  Those fuckwits don't matter.  They don't know what they think they know. They're just looking for an outlet and not decent enough to recognize when they're being jerks.

Salmon Arm BC is cursed.  That highway drags so much bad juju through town it feels like a black smoke snake of anger.  No wonder they struggle so with addiction here.  As evidenced by the advertising along the highway.

We made it over roger's pass but she had to rest at the top, the air was too thin. She keeps blowing out the gasket caulk but for the most part is doing extremely well.  my driving is too.  I've got the concept and have been managing to almost never use the brakes.  Only to snub quickly to bring my speed down for the engine gearing to take over, or as stopping brakes.  I think we will make it to the coast for the winter.  

Thief for not spending $50-100/day to exist.  Indeed. (cost of unserviced super cheap camping or bug motels)  That would be so expensive.  basically, living, before I pay for any food, clothing, heat, etc., would cost a minimum of $1500 a month!  Like wha?  Where the hell would I get that kind of money?  I live in a bus with disabilities!  Yep, unrealistic people with the good fortune to have employment with sufficient wages to pay that kind of cost simply don't know enough about the situation. Ignorance is deadly.

Ok, breakfast is getting very cold.

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