facebreaking
I coined a new term. Facebreak. To take a facebreak is simply taking a break from facebook. A common thing, just get fed up with all the discord and take a powder. I'm sick and fucking tired of all the false friendships, the criticism, the ranting.
What's worse, is all the times someone expresses regret that I'm going from an interesting woman to an evil man. Because all men are evil, and all women are saints, right? No regard for the reality that the person inside the shell is the same. Fah, I can't take the annoyance anymore. I just got to the point where I felt hatred to all mankind at a more personal and intense level than usual.
It's so much easier being neglected without reading a bazillion memes about human love and caring and having all these people express love and caring without one fucking single one of them actually extending themselves to give care!
oh yes I do. I'm currently bunny sitting and just got released from dropping in on my neighbor each morning to help her out after her surgery. Yeah, I do follow through. I'm under no illusions that this will in any way result in any reciprocation. Not from those to whom I do a favour nor from others. I saw what happened when I got cancer. Nothing. Lots of talk. no action. When I asked people to watch my videos, they refused. Utterly refused to actually show me the support they claim to offer. I mean, I spelled it out. I said "you don't have to actually watch, just play it in a browser window please and hit that like and subscribe. Show me some love." Nada. Seriously, these fucks can't even do that for me. So yeah, facebook is where I run into them so taking a break from facebook is a great way to stop seeing all those lies and misconceptions and pure stupidity. It also means I have less outlet to express myself, but that's ok. I really shouldn't be expressing myself to others. It'll only garner criticism.
Like how one woman gave me crap for "being down on myself" and thought she was giving me a compliment. ~sigh~ A compliment would be to appreciate and enjoy me as I arrive. Don't try and give me advice. Just don't. I almost never want any. When I do, I will directly request it!
I posted a request for advice in a skoolie group. Do you think anyone replied? LOL I'll have to check back today but usually if it isn't there by end of day it isn't going to happen at all.
Oh and it's delightful not to see my only actual friend whining all day. I like him, but I don't like him. I appreciate that he comes round and smokes and shares camaraderie with me, but he isn't exactly enjoyable company. He's just better than nothing. For that i'm glad, and I express positivity at him and feed him and show care. The kind of care I wish others would offer me. fuck I hate people. I really fucking do. i'm at the point where being homeless seems a reasonable outcome if only I can stop talking to people!
Yup, just checked, nobody's answered my request for advice. Typical. I dunno why. Fuck 'em all and fuck you too. Fuck everyone. Fuck life. I'm useless and my life is worthless and that's all there is to it. I was born to be a pariah. I'm stuck here till 2072 and it's as likely to get worse as to stay the same but I hold no illusions that it'll get better. I've got pets to care for, otherwise I think I would just put on my jeans and coat and leave everything behind and just start walking. Not sure what direction, north I guess. Best chance to die. South results in a border. West is another option, it would take me to the sea and maybe I could find a boat and keep going. Hell, maybe I could steal one. Swim out to some sailboat on a mooring and just fucking steal it.
Yeah, it's a fantasy. No, I don't think I could follow through. But it's a fun daydream. Just sail off into the sunset and let the ocean take me away. If I survive to see another shore, fine, go see stuff. Oh well. I'm stuck here. Got special medical needs now. Can't die, can't live, it's purgatory.
I fucking hate everything.
What's worse, is all the times someone expresses regret that I'm going from an interesting woman to an evil man. Because all men are evil, and all women are saints, right? No regard for the reality that the person inside the shell is the same. Fah, I can't take the annoyance anymore. I just got to the point where I felt hatred to all mankind at a more personal and intense level than usual.
It's so much easier being neglected without reading a bazillion memes about human love and caring and having all these people express love and caring without one fucking single one of them actually extending themselves to give care!
oh yes I do. I'm currently bunny sitting and just got released from dropping in on my neighbor each morning to help her out after her surgery. Yeah, I do follow through. I'm under no illusions that this will in any way result in any reciprocation. Not from those to whom I do a favour nor from others. I saw what happened when I got cancer. Nothing. Lots of talk. no action. When I asked people to watch my videos, they refused. Utterly refused to actually show me the support they claim to offer. I mean, I spelled it out. I said "you don't have to actually watch, just play it in a browser window please and hit that like and subscribe. Show me some love." Nada. Seriously, these fucks can't even do that for me. So yeah, facebook is where I run into them so taking a break from facebook is a great way to stop seeing all those lies and misconceptions and pure stupidity. It also means I have less outlet to express myself, but that's ok. I really shouldn't be expressing myself to others. It'll only garner criticism.
Like how one woman gave me crap for "being down on myself" and thought she was giving me a compliment. ~sigh~ A compliment would be to appreciate and enjoy me as I arrive. Don't try and give me advice. Just don't. I almost never want any. When I do, I will directly request it!
I posted a request for advice in a skoolie group. Do you think anyone replied? LOL I'll have to check back today but usually if it isn't there by end of day it isn't going to happen at all.
Oh and it's delightful not to see my only actual friend whining all day. I like him, but I don't like him. I appreciate that he comes round and smokes and shares camaraderie with me, but he isn't exactly enjoyable company. He's just better than nothing. For that i'm glad, and I express positivity at him and feed him and show care. The kind of care I wish others would offer me. fuck I hate people. I really fucking do. i'm at the point where being homeless seems a reasonable outcome if only I can stop talking to people!
Yup, just checked, nobody's answered my request for advice. Typical. I dunno why. Fuck 'em all and fuck you too. Fuck everyone. Fuck life. I'm useless and my life is worthless and that's all there is to it. I was born to be a pariah. I'm stuck here till 2072 and it's as likely to get worse as to stay the same but I hold no illusions that it'll get better. I've got pets to care for, otherwise I think I would just put on my jeans and coat and leave everything behind and just start walking. Not sure what direction, north I guess. Best chance to die. South results in a border. West is another option, it would take me to the sea and maybe I could find a boat and keep going. Hell, maybe I could steal one. Swim out to some sailboat on a mooring and just fucking steal it.
Yeah, it's a fantasy. No, I don't think I could follow through. But it's a fun daydream. Just sail off into the sunset and let the ocean take me away. If I survive to see another shore, fine, go see stuff. Oh well. I'm stuck here. Got special medical needs now. Can't die, can't live, it's purgatory.
I fucking hate everything.