bad parenting sucks

I can't get it out of my head.  Two kids come out of the store.  One is a little girl around five or six, the other a little boy around seven or eight. He appears to be in charge of his sister and she isn't obeying. He's hollering at her to slow down and come back, she's ignoring him. He catches up and turns her round and then grabs her hand to pull her back into the store. She stumbles and gets road rash on her elbow.  He says "you're okay, come on" quite impatiently while she's just discovering the shock of pain and starting to cry. I tell him "no, she's not okay, you pulled too hard and she fell and she's got a scuff on her now."  He gets up her with slightly less impatience and hauls her into the store.  Following behind I can hear their arrival at the adults in charge of them.  Because grand dad is yelling his face off at the boy, accusing him of pushing her down. I hustle over to see these two oldsters and pipe up and tell him how it went down. This calms the old prick slightly but I can see both kids are being parented terribly.  I move on, powerless and grieved.  I know if I said something, like "that's what happens when you leave kids in charge of kids" that he'd say something stupid about how he already raised kids once and knows what he's doing. Yeah, dad, that's why you have to parent your grand kids, because you did such a great job the first time around that they can't even raise their own crotch nuggets.  GRRRRRRR!!!!  I felt so sorry for those kids. Just two of many badly parented kids suffering in our world and what can I possibly do for them?  Naught.  I can't even think what I'd do if I was omnipotent, although mandatory birth control and parenting classes/licenses would play a part.  I've always wondered why we humans act as though breeding were a divine right and a required responsibility, whether you can do it or not.  When people say they're concerned they may not have it in them to do this job right, it's the one job everyone keeps insisting you'll magically do right when you land in it.  Yet so clearly this is not true. People used to pull that crap with me.  I'd say "no, I haven't any kids nor will I, I am not up to doing the job well enough."  "Oh no, the moment you have a child, all that goes away and you will find you know exactly what to do, it's instinctive!"  Then I say "so why do we have child protective services, abusive parents, and infanticide?"  That always shut them up.  The smart ones would say "well I guess, yeah, good for you for knowing yourself and not putting yourself in that situation."  The most loving thing I ever did for my kids was not having any.

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