lots of disability, no support
I'm an adult autistic disabled woman who has had to get by with zero disability or care support since age 17 and even as a child was expected to get tougher. I've been treated with callous indifference by the majority of people I've encountered, if not outright abuse and distrust.
I have spent my life trying to be less autistic for them and garnered only more criticism until now, at age 52, I'm spent, damaged, scarred and devoid of proper social skills, still with zero community support of any kind, let alone targeted for my disability.
Is it any wonder I do not have a lust for life? Or that I get negative? or that I cry a lot? or that I suffer so horribly from stress and anxiety based complaints?
Why then would a doctor prescribe drugs to dull the mind when my problem is so clearly real and physical and caused by a lack of support and kindness in my world?
But still, I'm treated like an embarassment at best and shuffled off to a back room, or avoided.
Is it this city? The region? Are people this cold and hostile everywhere? Is this world a place where you only count if you match up? Can I please go live somewhere where people are nice? Please? I don't like my life enough to keep living it the way things are. The stress will kill me if I don't kill myself!
I have spent my life trying to be less autistic for them and garnered only more criticism until now, at age 52, I'm spent, damaged, scarred and devoid of proper social skills, still with zero community support of any kind, let alone targeted for my disability.
Is it any wonder I do not have a lust for life? Or that I get negative? or that I cry a lot? or that I suffer so horribly from stress and anxiety based complaints?
Why then would a doctor prescribe drugs to dull the mind when my problem is so clearly real and physical and caused by a lack of support and kindness in my world?
But still, I'm treated like an embarassment at best and shuffled off to a back room, or avoided.
Is it this city? The region? Are people this cold and hostile everywhere? Is this world a place where you only count if you match up? Can I please go live somewhere where people are nice? Please? I don't like my life enough to keep living it the way things are. The stress will kill me if I don't kill myself!