stress and me
These are the ailments wrought by stress upon me.
Full body muscle cramps. I could isolate these to complain about back aches, neck aches, and charley horses but, well, it's all of them.
Headaches and emotional scarring. Everytime my anxiety peaks and causes me to get upset, I get averse conditioning to my world. it makes my world *feel* scarier. Just like being scared makes an animal more scared of what was happening.
Stress aggravates my immune system resulting in hay fever and asthma attacks.
Being tense messes up my digestion making it go back and forth between stones and water and it's done so much damage my rectum just bleeds with every fart like a little blood fountain. It's horrid and getting scary.
My teeth infections don't heal as well and get aggravated.
Things that stress me daily: The constant noise in the neighborhood. the agitated noise from my parrot when he reacts to my agitation The usual stuff we all deal with. The lack of support care on even a normal human level, means I am always faced with solving everything on my own.
When I try and overcome my fears and instead they're realized, like when I try to use a hair salon and instead get rejected again. Or when I spend saturday lunch out trying to sell my art and just get looked at weird.
I have to try and not think about these things day to day.
When Dan comes home and emotes all over me. When he constantly calls for my attention to help him find something or argue something. When I think about these things.
I really need to get a handle on it, it's making me pretty disabled.
Full body muscle cramps. I could isolate these to complain about back aches, neck aches, and charley horses but, well, it's all of them.
Headaches and emotional scarring. Everytime my anxiety peaks and causes me to get upset, I get averse conditioning to my world. it makes my world *feel* scarier. Just like being scared makes an animal more scared of what was happening.
Stress aggravates my immune system resulting in hay fever and asthma attacks.
Being tense messes up my digestion making it go back and forth between stones and water and it's done so much damage my rectum just bleeds with every fart like a little blood fountain. It's horrid and getting scary.
My teeth infections don't heal as well and get aggravated.
Things that stress me daily: The constant noise in the neighborhood. the agitated noise from my parrot when he reacts to my agitation The usual stuff we all deal with. The lack of support care on even a normal human level, means I am always faced with solving everything on my own.
When I try and overcome my fears and instead they're realized, like when I try to use a hair salon and instead get rejected again. Or when I spend saturday lunch out trying to sell my art and just get looked at weird.
I have to try and not think about these things day to day.
When Dan comes home and emotes all over me. When he constantly calls for my attention to help him find something or argue something. When I think about these things.
I really need to get a handle on it, it's making me pretty disabled.