Knowlege is unwanted?
I'm always worried, subconsciously, about people's mental anguish in not knowing something. I realize they probably don't even notice they don't know, let alone feel bad about it. Or maybe they've gotten used to the feeling? I don't know but they never appreciate me trying to relieve them of it by telling them what they don't know. Instead they presume I'm doing it to show them up. That I maybe even fake the data I present so I can have data to present which, apparently, makes me better than them if it's real and they really don't know it. So they dis the data, they dis me, and they work to "keep me in my place."
I wonder why it is so important to me? Not knowing something bothers me more than back spasms! Apparently it's even worse than loneliness since I clearly prioritize knowlege over making people feel important! But then, it's also my way of showing they're important to me by sharing my knowlege with them. How am I to know what it's like for data to fail to take hold? It always has with me!
Speaking of that, I'm worried about this brain lately. My spelling has been showing fails. I've never had trouble spelling except with a very few words, mostly around the positions of "i" and "e" in a word. So for me to actually forget how to spell a word, vs typographic errors, is a shock. I really must eat more fish, I guess. Less sugar, since it's still in my diet. And learn more about brain degeneration. I can accept that learning is harder, and that data isn't going to retrieve as smoothly anymore, but to lose a basic skill like spelling even only every few days, that's not proper. I seriously doubt brain disease would improve my quality of life, after all. Although, since my brain is the root of all my troubles, who knows, losing my mind could be the best thing to happen. I would quit annoying people and quit caring both! Maybe. back to the dishes for today.
I wonder why it is so important to me? Not knowing something bothers me more than back spasms! Apparently it's even worse than loneliness since I clearly prioritize knowlege over making people feel important! But then, it's also my way of showing they're important to me by sharing my knowlege with them. How am I to know what it's like for data to fail to take hold? It always has with me!
Speaking of that, I'm worried about this brain lately. My spelling has been showing fails. I've never had trouble spelling except with a very few words, mostly around the positions of "i" and "e" in a word. So for me to actually forget how to spell a word, vs typographic errors, is a shock. I really must eat more fish, I guess. Less sugar, since it's still in my diet. And learn more about brain degeneration. I can accept that learning is harder, and that data isn't going to retrieve as smoothly anymore, but to lose a basic skill like spelling even only every few days, that's not proper. I seriously doubt brain disease would improve my quality of life, after all. Although, since my brain is the root of all my troubles, who knows, losing my mind could be the best thing to happen. I would quit annoying people and quit caring both! Maybe. back to the dishes for today.