basket case days

I'm still doing basket case crap on a daily basis.  Getting so emotionally overwhelmed that my brain is dulled and stupid for the bulk of the rest of the day.  it really gets in the way of what I plan for a day!  I'd love to get on instructables and select a printer, start the process for building one, but I can't think that well when I'm upset!  it's the kind of thing you really need to be thinking to do.  I don't even know if I have any tasks to deal with today.  Hmmmmm, no nothing that can't wait for the temperatures to improve later this week.  Just home stuff.  I've got a pink box ready for it's feet and paint, but I haven't felt like coping with the torch.  It's not like it's difficult or anything, it sits on it's base with a handy little flame I use to heat up wire.  Then I stab the wire through the leg into the box and pin the feet to the box.  If I just popped them into the snap-fit hole, they wouldn't be secure enough for sales.  I've tried.  I can't always count on the printer making the hole perfectly either.  So I set them with an embedded wire.
The problem is that the flame is dangerous, and can set things on fire that you didn't know was in range, like loose hair, overhanging kleenex, or ...?  I haven't ever done it, but I worry if I'm not sharp enough I might.  Then there's the other problem, I'm having a really hard time aiming straight.  The wire and foot are both in the "less than a centimeter" size range where my eyes just aren't on it anymore.  I don't know why, but specs aren't helping enough either.  I wind up doing the stab several times and sometimes having to heat the foot back off the wire to start over.  Ick.  So I've been putting that off a couple days and now there's a 2nd box printing that'll be ready. When I'm ready, I can do them both at once.
I find the wire easier to clip if I get it when it's still hot, another fast precision move.  Yeap, I lose my precision on my "bad" days and do better just watching netflix and sanding the box top.  If it was summer, I'd make myself go out on the bike and that'd fix some of what's wrong with me.  It's just too  cold to go out if you're not compelled, like for work or a chore your husband hasn't already done for you.
He's good that way, a dedicated mule.  I needed someone who worked as hard as me but he works harder and that's challenging for my ego.

anyway, anxiety is sneaking up on me again and I'd rather watch Bunny Meyers @graveyardgirl on the Youtube. she's taking me shopping!  LOL

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