no hope in me
I say there's no hope in me yet I always dig some up out of my "wishful thinking" store.
I found some excellent links on anger management for Dan. He spent the time variously arguing what he didn't do to me, interspersed with arguments as to the personal creed of the author making the text invalid. "She sounds like she's angry at some man and I won't take advice from an angry woman" he declared.
He spent the whole night lying, dodging, shifting blame, and trying to focus the conversation on details and trivialities. He has never been otherwise.
So I must continue my plans to leave him. Period.
I need a container large enough for me and my pets. I need it to pull a trailer with my smart car on it. So I need a short bus with a hitch, and a flat bed trailer for snow mobiles. Then I can move my furniture and pets into and just turn my back on all this and let it try to chase me across the land.
I don't feel good not cleaning up the loose ends but if he's not participating or co-operating I simply won't have any other choice. He'll try and force me to stay in his co-dependant relationship over it if I try.
They won't come take my stuff, they won't know where I am! I hope I find solutions for local address and licensing when I get to BC.
This still has me so tense I can't sleep or eat and my belly is still ravaged. ~sigh~ I have so much anger in me these days. All courtesy of the rageaholic.
I found some excellent links on anger management for Dan. He spent the time variously arguing what he didn't do to me, interspersed with arguments as to the personal creed of the author making the text invalid. "She sounds like she's angry at some man and I won't take advice from an angry woman" he declared.
He spent the whole night lying, dodging, shifting blame, and trying to focus the conversation on details and trivialities. He has never been otherwise.
So I must continue my plans to leave him. Period.
I need a container large enough for me and my pets. I need it to pull a trailer with my smart car on it. So I need a short bus with a hitch, and a flat bed trailer for snow mobiles. Then I can move my furniture and pets into and just turn my back on all this and let it try to chase me across the land.
I don't feel good not cleaning up the loose ends but if he's not participating or co-operating I simply won't have any other choice. He'll try and force me to stay in his co-dependant relationship over it if I try.
They won't come take my stuff, they won't know where I am! I hope I find solutions for local address and licensing when I get to BC.
This still has me so tense I can't sleep or eat and my belly is still ravaged. ~sigh~ I have so much anger in me these days. All courtesy of the rageaholic.