All this quietude and anonymity has really served to help me calm the noise in my head. Anxiety still rambles on, but slower, and takes breaks. My brain thinks about other things now too, like watching ducklings and thinking about their security strategies and lifestyle, and etc. I have better focus now. I am calmer. I have more buffer mood before something bothers me. I couldn't find this chill in my house. There were random stress hits and worry reminders every few minutes. Whether it was a disturbance outside or the decay inside, or the phone or mail hitting me with complaints about everything, I simply couldn't relax. Oh, and dogs. Always someone's dog barking all day and all night, pitifully sometimes, neglected and miserable and constant. Remembering tenses me up!
Huh, some van just came into the area, parked briefly, then left. Earlier there was a sprinter van that did the same, and mysteriously parked in the one place he couldn't enjoy the view, then moved to park for a long time right next to the pump station. But I am dead sure it was a fancy campervan. Like did he want to camp here but didn't like me? why did he hide himself from the lake? Why not park over by the boat ramp for solitude and a good view? Now the red van, that was so brief I can't help but wonder if they were up to no good.
The employee dude here said the homeless were always breaking in and stealing, but I think he's mistaken on who the thieves are. They're coming in vehicles. these are people who drive around the industrial area observing what is and what isn't adequately guarded and then taking advantage of fools. This place hasn't even got a simple camera setup! they could contract with a guy like me to come camp here for the season and that would improve security very much. Maybe next year they will discuss it with me. For now, I won't leave until staff arrive monday morning. By being here, I stop crime. If I leave and crime happens shortly after, they'll assume it was me, as the last person seen around. So yeah, I wouldn't be surprised if red van was here for crime enterprises. Weirdly, there is no way to know if there's anything of decent value on the site from just looking at the arrangement of sea cans, outhouse, deck and a little shack at the end of the property. But thieves are nothing if not explorers. They'll just poke into things for curiousity and like a gamer finding a loot chest, squeal with delight when it "pays off." This place really does need surveillance cameras.
Magpies have been playing with my stuff, LOL
I had the roof undone while I connect all the solar panels together and the magpies, who are juveniles with parents, were up there at 6am fiddling with the bright colored and metal straps. Quelle surprise, eh? They also picked off most of the carnations on my little carnation plant. she'd only just finally gotten going on her blooms, LOL She is already recovering. Little feathered stinkers are just like parrots. Ohhhh, pelicans at sunset! Out there, outside my front window, three gorgeous giant white birds.
This is what my heart has been aching for, you see. Quiet and nature. It's always been what I crave and for most of my adult life it's been behind a pay wall. Even now it's a pocket of nature surrounded by the most ugly box warehouses we know how to build. If I had the money, I would propose a mural on all of the surrounding buildings which simulated the blue sky and trees just enough to take the boxes out of view. Thing is, this place is still kind of a secret and I have no intention of spilling it. I stumbled on something that can't bear population pressure and is already a bit abused. If the weather plays fair, perhaps I'll whip myself into shape on litter cleanup. I do have a reacher tool to help. I think I have time too, really, unless I try to felt up those felt blanks I have prepared. I really ought to.
Ok, well, it's a lovely saturday evening, my power booster is running a light, the tv and computer and phone, and timmy's hot bed, all off of solar. I got such a cheap quote on my muffler that I am going to buy some batteries for the solar and get it hooked to the outlets onboard. That will allow me to run my fridge or at least the ice maker if there isn't enough capacity in the batteries I buy. I know it can be calculated and if I was capable, I would have succeeded by now. I've certainly tried. Instead, I'm a try it and see and adjust as needed type of maker because I just can't deal with math.