stop being efficient?
I just thought of this. What if I adopted a new attitude of avoiding efficiency and expediency? Everything I do, I'm thinking about how to do it more efficiently. Oh I'm capable of impressive feats of it, yes. Three, four things on the go at once, every move plotted. Start the kettle first so it's boiling when the bags are peeled and put in the pot (maybe, usually not anyway). Start the long slow thing first and monitor it while you do all the quick little things.
I know, it sounds like a good thing to be able to do. and it is. And I can. That's just it. Know what I can't do? Slow down and relax. yeah, I have a LOT of time on my hands right now. Why do I need to be efficient? I do need to learn to relax, though. to feel that sense of time being passed mindfully, with presence, with awareness. Not have it scuttle past my flurry of activity, ashamed that it exists, feeling like the unwanted cousin at the reunion. No, I should say to it 'hey, welcome, come in and sit awhile. We never get enough time, let's make tea the slow way."
So, now that I've written it out I hope to remember in the coming weeks to try this idea. I can be efficient if I actually have a lot of things at once or am pressed to get something done, but for now, I have this "luxury," aka excess of time. Maybe by taking it, I can learn something useful.
I wonder if I'll remember this in an hour? That's why I wrote it here. The act of telling, especially in text, really helps with memory.
I know, it sounds like a good thing to be able to do. and it is. And I can. That's just it. Know what I can't do? Slow down and relax. yeah, I have a LOT of time on my hands right now. Why do I need to be efficient? I do need to learn to relax, though. to feel that sense of time being passed mindfully, with presence, with awareness. Not have it scuttle past my flurry of activity, ashamed that it exists, feeling like the unwanted cousin at the reunion. No, I should say to it 'hey, welcome, come in and sit awhile. We never get enough time, let's make tea the slow way."
So, now that I've written it out I hope to remember in the coming weeks to try this idea. I can be efficient if I actually have a lot of things at once or am pressed to get something done, but for now, I have this "luxury," aka excess of time. Maybe by taking it, I can learn something useful.
I wonder if I'll remember this in an hour? That's why I wrote it here. The act of telling, especially in text, really helps with memory.