fitness, paleo diet, chemo
I haven't had chemo symptoms to any great degree. When I do, they're a surprise, because of the lack of symptoms, and the fact I'm not currently taking any chemo. I guess the stuff has effects for days after, but I never read about it or got told, so I don't know that much (yet) about how that works. Plus which, the flourouracil got cut off half way. Again, seems to me I shouldn't worry about symptoms till the next round? Not so sure that's correct, though. I've been doing some research on it.
See, I want my weight to be 120-125lbs unless and until I can see that I'm under 15% body fat. I measure it roughly since I can only pinch an inch here and there, guesstimate the thickness, and put it into a calculator online. But I did gain fat weight, so I set my fitbit on a losing plan. The last three days it's been easier to follow once I got the hang of how much to put out each meal. I'd been used to eating more than I should. If I was properly active, that'd be different, but right now I'm kind of housebound for fear of germs and from tiredness. Yes, tired is one symptom the chemo is having on me. But then maybe that's also the reduced intake of iron pills? I cut them because I think they add to constipation and mine is getting important. I'm considering risking a "flush" with stronger laxatives just to fix it up, but i'm too scared. I wouldn't mind if it meant sitting on the toilet suffering or whatever, but the threat of having shit spray all over me in a bag burst is just too horrifying. I'd honestly rather have constipation than a leakage or any kind or any level. Well I've started adding a laxative, and it's doing nothing. ~sigh~ What a nuisance. So maybe the weight gain is just unmoved waste? I dunno, but in spite of the unmoved, I've pulled three pounds off me now.
Paleo diet. well there's an interesting thing. If I should "cheat" say eating a little cream puff from the bakery, you know, the big puff pastry stuffed with whipped cream, or if I have a chai latte tassimo, using milk and sugar, I'll immediately feel nauseous! Yes, it's that obvious. I haven't tried a number of non-paleo foods, but the only nausea I've had has followed something with sugar in it. The gouda cheese isn't bothering me, so I'll blame that white sugar again. Maple syrup or honey, no problem, even direct on an empty stomach. Green tea with almond milk and maple syrup literally settles my stomach. The first day home, I found my stomach tender all day, like the way it feels if you wait too long between meals, that slightly edgy sense that goes away when you put wholesome food in it. But then I was also cutting back my portion sizes heavily from recently changing my fitbit settings. So I WAS empty and hungry all day!
I also quit the support meds they'd sent home. The way I understand it, one is for heartburn, one is for nausea, and one is to control the side effects of the first two. I got one of the side effects of that latter third, in the list of "discontinue use immediately." It also said to contact my doctor immediately but next round of treatments is plenty soon enough as far as I'm concerned. since I'm not experiencing heartburn or nausea, why take any of them?
I know my docs will disagree but they also know a: I make my own decisions, ultimately, and they're not always the "right" decisions and b: I'm doing it very well, seeing good success. I'm not making myself sicker, I'm making myself well and enhancing the value of the treatments they're giving me thereby.
I figure if that continues to be true, no reason to just be obedient. I mean, these are people who recommend milk and sugar with chemical vitamin additives as a food replacement. (ensure, pedialyte) and even sugar water with salts in it, like gatorade, for people on their last legs! No wonder most folks die when they get that bad, with tender care like dead over-processed foods and sugar water with lab vitamins for a diet.
I'm really happy I had 3 years learning on Paleo before getting sick. It not only dramatically improved my condition going in, but meant I was experienced in saying "no" to toxic foods, knew alternative solutions and had invented good recipes, and had a pretty routine diet going on. The house is paleo, my husband has learned to respect my choices and drastically reduced his use of non-paleo foods too, even my pets are on home mixed diets. Dog eats flesh, raw or cooked, eggs, his choice of cooked or raw fruits and vegetables, and occasionally a treat of honey or peanut butter (not paleo but Dan still considers it a mainstay.) The parrot isn't "paleo" because he's a bird, and they eat seeds and grains, bugs and vegetables, fruits and flowers. So as much of the above as I can find, I offer him. the rabbit, same sort of thing, although more vegan than a parrot. Far as I can tell, rabbits avoid eating anything that can run away from them. Mostly he gets plants, just handfuls of herbs, summer grazing in the garden, and what the parrot rejects from his bowl. I supplement with pellets if pickings are a bit lean. Oh, and a ton of hay. So yeah, Dan's the only one still eating inappropriate foods for his species, heh. I would rather bring him along for many years but lets face it, having him die has positives on which I could focus too, so let him do as he pleases even if it cuts his life short. But really, I do still try hard to push healthy food at him and take proper care of him. The better he eats, the better he behaves, and the easier it is to appreciate him instead of being like "meh, if he kills himself I'll figure something out." No, I'm not talking about suicide or depression, I'm talking about candy and processed foods.
Yeah yeah, I know, my language around food is too dramatic. But here's the thing, cancer is getting pretty common. It didn't used to be that everyone you meet either has it, had it, or is supporting someone with it. Think about that? We always register foods as "toxic" if the effects are relatively rapid. Within a month, or at least a year, and really obvious. Food that takes years to give you cancer, and may in fact not manage depending on your intake levels or DNA even? We've learned some things are carcinogens, like asbestos or radiation, but it's taken extremely obvious cues for that. We're STILL arguing over glyphosate, right? That's RoundUP herbicide, used by farmers to speed up harvest. No, they don't remove it any point. I guess they figure it goes away with the husk when they thresh the grain. BTW, said husks and stalks are often fed back to the cows used in the meat and milk industry. That means, again, more glyphosate in the food chain.
DDT was like that. It seemed to just "go away" till we noticed our largest top predator birds disappearing. It was eventually found that DDT built up in the food chain, from bug to bug to frog to fish to eagles, and when it got to the higher order predators, they actually wound up taking in a lot. So the cattle would be concentrating it worse than what's on the grain at harvest, and giving it on to us who concentrate it yet more. Is that organic, that dairy product you just ate? No? Glyphosate. There's a cancer epidemic, but the folks we rely on to tell us are either being quiet on purpose, or command. Just think about who all has cancer today that you know. Now if you're reading this in the future, you know the stats, they'll be open to know, you'll know it was a crazy silent epidemic that fed the industries. That the corporations who served the poisons also served the drugs and medical equipment, and cancer served them very well indeed. Bayer just bought Roundup as part of acquiring Monsanto, the GMO creator. If that's not a "conflict of interest" between supplying poison and cure in one company, what is?
But here we are, and here I am, trying not to get fat on chemo, trying to do my part in the fight, hoping I don't get lung cancer.
Oh, and another thing I forgot to put in, I've got appt. with a lead pilates cancer patient class. First I interview with the instructor and fill out a form, then there's a class right after next tuesday. I'm terrified of it, but I also hear the class is really small, about 4 or 5 students per, so that will help. I just need to keep myself small, try not to be my full self in there, try and keep quiet. I just forget when I'm fully engaged, especially if I'm using my brain for other things like learning. It's even worse when the instructor is trying to involve me and make me feel important, I really forget to contain myself! I hope what I learn there in ten free sessions is enough to keep me going later. I think so, I've become a lot more self-driven these last years. Speaking of which, since I'm feeling better today, it's time to put the treadmill out and spend a couple hours gently walking. I watch videos, play with knitting or my computer, or something else as I figure it. I could, in fact, play minecraft on the xbox while I walk today. That might be a blast. I put a board over the handles of the treadmill and use it like a desk and there's room enough behind that for my full stride. I bungee it in place so it's safe to grab, lean on, or bump. Ok, bye.
See, I want my weight to be 120-125lbs unless and until I can see that I'm under 15% body fat. I measure it roughly since I can only pinch an inch here and there, guesstimate the thickness, and put it into a calculator online. But I did gain fat weight, so I set my fitbit on a losing plan. The last three days it's been easier to follow once I got the hang of how much to put out each meal. I'd been used to eating more than I should. If I was properly active, that'd be different, but right now I'm kind of housebound for fear of germs and from tiredness. Yes, tired is one symptom the chemo is having on me. But then maybe that's also the reduced intake of iron pills? I cut them because I think they add to constipation and mine is getting important. I'm considering risking a "flush" with stronger laxatives just to fix it up, but i'm too scared. I wouldn't mind if it meant sitting on the toilet suffering or whatever, but the threat of having shit spray all over me in a bag burst is just too horrifying. I'd honestly rather have constipation than a leakage or any kind or any level. Well I've started adding a laxative, and it's doing nothing. ~sigh~ What a nuisance. So maybe the weight gain is just unmoved waste? I dunno, but in spite of the unmoved, I've pulled three pounds off me now.
Paleo diet. well there's an interesting thing. If I should "cheat" say eating a little cream puff from the bakery, you know, the big puff pastry stuffed with whipped cream, or if I have a chai latte tassimo, using milk and sugar, I'll immediately feel nauseous! Yes, it's that obvious. I haven't tried a number of non-paleo foods, but the only nausea I've had has followed something with sugar in it. The gouda cheese isn't bothering me, so I'll blame that white sugar again. Maple syrup or honey, no problem, even direct on an empty stomach. Green tea with almond milk and maple syrup literally settles my stomach. The first day home, I found my stomach tender all day, like the way it feels if you wait too long between meals, that slightly edgy sense that goes away when you put wholesome food in it. But then I was also cutting back my portion sizes heavily from recently changing my fitbit settings. So I WAS empty and hungry all day!
I also quit the support meds they'd sent home. The way I understand it, one is for heartburn, one is for nausea, and one is to control the side effects of the first two. I got one of the side effects of that latter third, in the list of "discontinue use immediately." It also said to contact my doctor immediately but next round of treatments is plenty soon enough as far as I'm concerned. since I'm not experiencing heartburn or nausea, why take any of them?
I know my docs will disagree but they also know a: I make my own decisions, ultimately, and they're not always the "right" decisions and b: I'm doing it very well, seeing good success. I'm not making myself sicker, I'm making myself well and enhancing the value of the treatments they're giving me thereby.
I figure if that continues to be true, no reason to just be obedient. I mean, these are people who recommend milk and sugar with chemical vitamin additives as a food replacement. (ensure, pedialyte) and even sugar water with salts in it, like gatorade, for people on their last legs! No wonder most folks die when they get that bad, with tender care like dead over-processed foods and sugar water with lab vitamins for a diet.
I'm really happy I had 3 years learning on Paleo before getting sick. It not only dramatically improved my condition going in, but meant I was experienced in saying "no" to toxic foods, knew alternative solutions and had invented good recipes, and had a pretty routine diet going on. The house is paleo, my husband has learned to respect my choices and drastically reduced his use of non-paleo foods too, even my pets are on home mixed diets. Dog eats flesh, raw or cooked, eggs, his choice of cooked or raw fruits and vegetables, and occasionally a treat of honey or peanut butter (not paleo but Dan still considers it a mainstay.) The parrot isn't "paleo" because he's a bird, and they eat seeds and grains, bugs and vegetables, fruits and flowers. So as much of the above as I can find, I offer him. the rabbit, same sort of thing, although more vegan than a parrot. Far as I can tell, rabbits avoid eating anything that can run away from them. Mostly he gets plants, just handfuls of herbs, summer grazing in the garden, and what the parrot rejects from his bowl. I supplement with pellets if pickings are a bit lean. Oh, and a ton of hay. So yeah, Dan's the only one still eating inappropriate foods for his species, heh. I would rather bring him along for many years but lets face it, having him die has positives on which I could focus too, so let him do as he pleases even if it cuts his life short. But really, I do still try hard to push healthy food at him and take proper care of him. The better he eats, the better he behaves, and the easier it is to appreciate him instead of being like "meh, if he kills himself I'll figure something out." No, I'm not talking about suicide or depression, I'm talking about candy and processed foods.
Yeah yeah, I know, my language around food is too dramatic. But here's the thing, cancer is getting pretty common. It didn't used to be that everyone you meet either has it, had it, or is supporting someone with it. Think about that? We always register foods as "toxic" if the effects are relatively rapid. Within a month, or at least a year, and really obvious. Food that takes years to give you cancer, and may in fact not manage depending on your intake levels or DNA even? We've learned some things are carcinogens, like asbestos or radiation, but it's taken extremely obvious cues for that. We're STILL arguing over glyphosate, right? That's RoundUP herbicide, used by farmers to speed up harvest. No, they don't remove it any point. I guess they figure it goes away with the husk when they thresh the grain. BTW, said husks and stalks are often fed back to the cows used in the meat and milk industry. That means, again, more glyphosate in the food chain.
DDT was like that. It seemed to just "go away" till we noticed our largest top predator birds disappearing. It was eventually found that DDT built up in the food chain, from bug to bug to frog to fish to eagles, and when it got to the higher order predators, they actually wound up taking in a lot. So the cattle would be concentrating it worse than what's on the grain at harvest, and giving it on to us who concentrate it yet more. Is that organic, that dairy product you just ate? No? Glyphosate. There's a cancer epidemic, but the folks we rely on to tell us are either being quiet on purpose, or command. Just think about who all has cancer today that you know. Now if you're reading this in the future, you know the stats, they'll be open to know, you'll know it was a crazy silent epidemic that fed the industries. That the corporations who served the poisons also served the drugs and medical equipment, and cancer served them very well indeed. Bayer just bought Roundup as part of acquiring Monsanto, the GMO creator. If that's not a "conflict of interest" between supplying poison and cure in one company, what is?
But here we are, and here I am, trying not to get fat on chemo, trying to do my part in the fight, hoping I don't get lung cancer.
Oh, and another thing I forgot to put in, I've got appt. with a lead pilates cancer patient class. First I interview with the instructor and fill out a form, then there's a class right after next tuesday. I'm terrified of it, but I also hear the class is really small, about 4 or 5 students per, so that will help. I just need to keep myself small, try not to be my full self in there, try and keep quiet. I just forget when I'm fully engaged, especially if I'm using my brain for other things like learning. It's even worse when the instructor is trying to involve me and make me feel important, I really forget to contain myself! I hope what I learn there in ten free sessions is enough to keep me going later. I think so, I've become a lot more self-driven these last years. Speaking of which, since I'm feeling better today, it's time to put the treadmill out and spend a couple hours gently walking. I watch videos, play with knitting or my computer, or something else as I figure it. I could, in fact, play minecraft on the xbox while I walk today. That might be a blast. I put a board over the handles of the treadmill and use it like a desk and there's room enough behind that for my full stride. I bungee it in place so it's safe to grab, lean on, or bump. Ok, bye.